I'm alive! I know. I know. It's been a really long time, and that is all my fault. I apologize. I feel like I don't even know where to begin since it has been such a long time since I touched base. I guess I'll just dive right in...
I've been living back in Vegas now for 7 months. I feel like I blinked and the time flew by. It's scary how quickly things can happen and how much has changed. Here are a few highlights to catch you up. In the past 7 months, I:
- Got an apartment with my best friend Jennifer, or as I like to call her, Mimms.
- Got a raise and title change from Event Sales Coordinator to Entertainment Manager.
- Dated a little here and there, but still haven't found my person.
- Worked on quite a few successful work programs that I had a part in conception to completion on.
I'm sure there's a lot more that has happened, but those are some of my most memorable. In a few weeks, my boss and best friend is taking our work team on a team-building trip to Napa. While it won't be all fun and games, I'm excited for a change of scenery. I sit at the same desk everyday. This will be like an adventure!
My co-workers, DeMuriel and Rebecca and I will be going out early, the night of Friday, September 9th and T and Cat, our Office Coordinator will be joining us on the 13th. This is the first time we have done a work trip for work and pleasure, so I'm looking forward to it. I am going to be sad when I have to leave Soldier, my baby. Did I mention I got a kitten? It actually happened way back in April, but he's definitely one of the brightest parts of my life right now. He was 7 weeks old when I got him, and they weened him off his mothers milk about a week early. He was even eating hard food when I got him. He's much bigger now though, see below.
Soldier - 11 weeks
He's about 11 weeks old now, and I call him Dennis the Menace. He's at that stage in his life where he wants to be on every table and counter-top. I hate to break it to you, buddy, but it ain't happening. NO freaking way. He's learning, but slow.
I have been (SLOWLY) writing The Darkness Remains. It's hard, because, if I had it my way, it would have been released months ago. I just haven't had the time to dedicate to writing it. I've finally made it to 35k words, and I know I still have a ways to go. At the end of the day, it isn't about the amount of words, it's about the story and how it makes people feel....but still. I want to get to at least 45k words before I hand it over to my beta readers. Normally after my initial beta readers get their hands on the manuscript, I've got enough feedback to add another 5k-10k words.
Because I haven't had much to share in terms of the aforementioned book, I've been sharing teasers and excerpts from my novel, The Many Faces of Love. A lot of people have shown interest. In fact, yesterday, I posted the author note from the book to my Facebook page and it had over 500 people see it and 25 likes. Although my page has over 3700 likes, Facebook rarely allows more than 50 people to see my posts on an average basis, so I was surprised. I feel conflicted when I think about actually publishing the novel. My reasoning? It's bare bones and me in the raw. Even though names have been changed, there are actual emails and letters and journals in it. Honestly, if any of the men from my past did get a hold of it (even though I warned them about it long ago and emailed most of them their chapters), I wonder what they would think. I wonder if they would want to sue me or something.
Funny enough, last night I found out that one of my exes in the book has been hanging out/seeing one of my old friends. I wasn't sure how to feel about it at first, but to be honest, I'm happy for them. They both deserve someone who makes them excited to wake up in the morning. I just hope I will be able to find that again myself someday...
I know I deserve love. I didn't, for a very long time, and I accepted that. But I'm ready to find that all-consuming love again, and I feel like I've paid my dues. I'm ready to take the plunge. I think a lot about who the next victim will be (ha ha). But really, I do fantasize a lot about the next person who will give me butterflies. I hope one day I will be able to find my best friend again.