Sunday, May 14, 2017

I Turned 31 and Didn't Explode

I'm officially 31 years old. I don't feel too different.

In a little over a month I will be publishing my 13th book. It took a lot longer than I would have liked, but I am just thankful that it is finally coming together. All I have left to do is find a tour company who can do a release blitz and review tour/query for me. I have already scheduled my cover reveal - June 1st. Hopefully that will also be the day it goes on pre-order.

On the work front, we had a really big program dropped on us with no time to turn it around, and we did a really great job. We undercut another well known entertainment company out of LA, and were able to deliver an amazing experience at an affordable price. We worked some magic to get the entire program to come together, but I'm really proud of my team.

I'm still having trouble with my energy, my gastritis, pain management, and overall exhaustion. I'm tired of being the size I am. One thing I enjoyed doing recently was trying to learn how to hip-hop dance. I Googled some beginners choreography and got my sweat on. I forgot how much I love dancing and how it doesn't come easy to me at all. I think that is so motivating.

I've decided that after I publish my next book, I am going to take a break from writing and really work on me. I am going to read more, workout, eat healthier, and actually go on dates. It's been too long since I've replied to ANY of the messages I receive on the handful of dating websites I'm on. It would be even better to meet someone in person. But first I need to feel comfortable in my own skin again. I can't stand my double chin, fat cheeks, or extra chub right now. It's really bringing me down.

I ended up booking a trip to Oregon for a late birthday present to myself. I will be there from the 25th of this month until the 30th. I go back to work on the 31st. I'm really ready for a vacation. It's been over 5 months since I was there for Christmas to see my family last. I'm excited to see my niece and nephew. I'm excited to see my Grandmas. I'm excited to work on music.

I've been writing a lot of lyrics to Jesse's beats lately. I hope we have time to record three songs. It's been a really long time since we released anything. I would also like to actually finish Just Love. Jesse somehow dug up our performance from 2 years ago at his colleges International Night, and it's so cute! I look much tinier than I am now, and I dance like a total white girl. One of my arms is so awkward the whole time...but for our first performance, I think we did a decent job! If you're curious, you can check it out here.

If I can lose some of this extra weight I've been carrying around then I'd really like to explore getting back into acting and onstage in any capacity. Next month we are going on a team outing to somewhere in California near the beach and I do not own a swimsuit currently because I'm uncomfortable with how my body looks.  I don't even really own shorts. I'm going to need to get something before our trip out there.

Well, I've rambled long enough. I'm going to get some sleep for work tomorrow. Tata for now. <3 br="">


Listening to: 
Human by Of Mice and Men
Carousel by Melanie Martinez
Gasoline by Halsey
Rabbit Heart (Raise it Up) by Florence + the Machine
Uncharted by Sara Bareilles
Sleep on the Floor by the Lumineers
Pretty When You Cry by Lana Del Ray

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