There's No Quit in Win

She lives!

No, but really. I'm alive and kicking. I'm sure you already deduced that, but still.

It's less than a month away from my 32nd birthday. I'm unsure what I want to do. It will be the first time in over two years that I won't go home to celebrate. Seeing as I just got back from Hawaii a couple of weeks ago, I don't feel comfortable leaving again like that for a while.

Hawaii was nice for the most part. I went with a friend and we stayed in her cousin's Air B&B and a hotel. We went on a booze cruise, but because we're both grandma's we both got seasick. The only time I didn't feel sick was when we got to get off the boat and go snorkeling. That was a lot of fun. We also went in a submarine, again got seasick towards the end, but still a pretty cool experience. Went to a wine tasting at a pretty vineyard. I got sick the last day in Hawaii and didn't get to experience the Road to Hana, but all in all, it was a pretty fun trip. I don't feel like I got to do many things for me, so I think next time I go on vacation, I'd like to make that a priority at least. Like swim with dolphins or zipline. Things like that are really fun for me.

I was just in LA on Tuesday for a big event and it went really well. One of the artist's from The Voice, Morgan Mallory opened for One Republic at a corporate event I booked him at. It was an awesome event and I am happy I got this booking for him. Lately, I've been at a lot of corporate events with headline entertainment. Martina McBride, Pitbull, and now One Republic. I feel like things can only go up from here.

Tomorrow my coordinator and I are going to San Francisco to hold auditions. This is my favorite part of my job. Getting to actually get my hands dirty with scouting new potentials. There is so much talent all over and most of the time I scout them blind meaning I don't see them perform until they have done a booking with us. That's how I sell 75% of my talent. It generally works out. But this is so much more exciting getting to see exactly what we are selling and even tape them to show to the rest of my team.

Apart from these two trips, I'll be tethered to Vegas for the unforeseeable future. I'm still single and not really trying much with the dating websites anymore. I just feel really let down. I feel like I am losing hope. At what point do you admit defeat and stop trying? Stop looking? Cause that's just about where I'm at.

I haven't been feeling 100% either, so I haven't been my usual social self. I really want to quit drinking as alcohol and me do not agree. My body does not like alcohol and I always feel pressured to drink. I need to put my foot down and just say no for good. Update: I have been off of alcohol for just about 2 weeks. It's not easy saying no all the time, but I think it's better for me.

In a little less than a month and a half, my roommate and I will be moving out of our apartment and looking for a house. I am hoping that I will be able to find something and be approved. My whole goal is to get a house as I've been saving up for quite some time now. I just want to rent, not own. I really hope everything works out for me. I hate the idea of moving.

I know I'm just rambling at this point, but I rather enjoy coming back and reading these status updates months or years later - so this is mainly for that. And also all you creepers out there. ;-) You know who you are.